I feel like such an ass.

I really wish I was a more detail-oriented person. I mean, I know that I am highly intelligent and creative, and would be excellent as a researcher for any organization, but this admin work is just not for me. I made two major errors in the weekly report I sent out and feel absolutely horrible. I should have called in sick with the flu that day cuz I was so out of it-plus there was that whole rejection thing that occurred that day that was quite a disappointment, but one I should have seen coming from the very beginning- but still I feel like a real irresponsible jerk. I know that in the professional world such mistakes are not acceptable, and I really need to get my act together. Plus I cán't get all emotional and cry like I did in college when I screwed something up cuz I have to keep a solid, composed demeanor. Sometimes I wish I had a colder, more resilient personality. Anyway, I hope to God I can do better in the future, and that this next week isn't as shitty as the last.

So please pray that something-anything-will go right for me this week. I really need it.